living life

other than work, i've been procrastinating on almost every other aspect of my life.

my room is in the worst state since i've moved in
my chair and bed had become my second and third wardrobe
almost 1/2 of walkable space in my room are currently occupied by my clutter

imagine that.. i don't even have the mood to go out or organise anything. that's how bad i;ve become.


speaking of organising, i've grew tired of that. taking a backseat and will wait to see what happens.
work's is just like a time bomb. i have no freaking idea when it will be my turn to leave. such uncertainty in bad times, its not within my control, so i'll just let it bother me, but not too much

and of course, what will be complete without boys' problem

i'm sort of dating this guy currently, who happens to be a good friend of mine. hmm let's see how many i've dated in the past who were friends..i think he's most prob the first.

it isn't extreme to say that we are both from different worlds, in almost every possible way,
despite that, the sparks were there and there were lots of laughters and fun

came the thin fine line of friendship and dating
which part we were threading on, both were pretty clear
but then, came the even thinner and finer line of dating and relationship
which part we were threading on, both weren't very clear,
to make it worst, both were on the wrong ends at different points of time

communication were alright, but bad when it comes to things that matters- refusing and sometimes, no idea on how to express

and i guess the part which hurts me the most is to realise that underneath it all, he is just like any other guys.
i dunno which is worse, he hurting me as a friend, or as a fling