Prior to the previous post.. I met up with him shortly after our breakup. He didn't give me any chance to speak when he initated the break, saying that we would have to meet another day after he has cooldown.

Just as I'd suspected, the real reason for meeting up again was just to get back his stuff from me. He gave me sometime to 'express' myself, note the used of word. His mind was already set and as stubborn as he has always been, he refused to listen, let alone talk. I might as well talk to a wall.

Since now it's really and truly over, I have decided to move on to the next phase of my life. It hurts badly.. but i've been through this shit once in Perth, and somehow, it seems much more bearable this time round.

I've been keeping myself busy ever since we talked and hey, it's not too bad after all. of course i missed the times we had spent together, be it aimlessly surfing the internet, watching random youtube clips, catching a quick espd of friends, seeking comfort in his arms and words. I would go to the extend and say that I really love and gave up a lot for a chance to be together but only to realised how unstable he was as a partner.




That's how love goes. I hurt some, get hurt by some.

but that's not the end. i'll pick myself up and move on ahead.

breaking up

breaking up is never easy. especially if you're not the one initiating it.

Whether I went back to the state I was when in perth few months back, is still uncertain...

I lost my appetite, literally. i'm sure i've lost couple of pounds within few days.. but i'm not starving myself...and i always make sure i eat before drinking any alcohol. .

its really hard to cope, someone who u thought u could spend your life with just end it with a snap of his fingers, as though he was making a decision to drink coffee or tea. whatever we had, those that i held in uttermost importance, treasured and cherished were just like a puff of smoke, blown away with every puff from a smoker's mouth.

it's really a pity. it really breaks my heart. i'm not really good with words, but sometimes the feeling inside is so terrible that i could just break down in the middle of nowhere... walking past the substation...buying lunch...on the way home...

but just when you are thinking that i;m wallowing in my own self pity, i'm not.

just when you are thinking that i'm detached and shattered to bits, i'm not

at the end of the day. i know that i'll always be blessed with love... simply because i know how and am not afraid to love. I don't retreat into my shell to avoid everything.. and most importantly, i know how to cherish the ones who are important to me. I don't say it, I show it.

thanks crystal for the lovely tulips.. it really made my day...i was really very touched...

thanks kiat, for buying me the cough syrup and being there for me since the breakup. (i'm still coughing though =\ )

thanks mei si for clubbing with me, even though we felt like we were the oldest there.

and also, everyone.. who listened, comforted and told me that they will always be there for me.

happy 2009!

happy 2009 to everyone out there.

kinda neglected this blog, with the recent hype over facebook.. but anyway, now i;m back and with a few updates

work's still going good.. can feel the things piling up and kinda glad, after days of loafing. now that the festive seasons are over, i cant really wait to get back to work

i was making my resolutions for 2009 over the past few days.. And since I do it almost every year... for 2009, i resolve to...

1) get my driving license

2) get my braces off

3) get promoted

4) save up to 5 digits

5) keep this site going

6) room makeover

7) exercise at least 1-2 times a week

8) complete 1/4 marathon 

9) pick up cantonese

9 resolutions for 2009

i prob should include 'cut down on my drinking' but maybe i leave that for next year

and i guess here is better than facebook in a way. not that 'open'

i certainly wouldn't write this whole chunk over there.

and i'm off to clear the mess on my floor and get down to work. 

remember to make your resolutions!