First baking sesh in SG

Dear bazz.

I love your house, tiramisu, shots and indo mee.
yeah and of cos. u. for the umpteen times. i'm so glad you;re back.
when's the next sesh?

two funerals in a week is enough to get your sprits down.
funerals alway bring back too many unpleasant feelings, memories and also, the sad fact that we will eventually say goodbye to our loved ones in time to come.

Which got me thinking...

I rather be selfish and die before my loved ones... and inflict the pain on them instead. I felt quite bad that this actually crossed my mind..

I rather distance myself from my loved ones, so when its time to say goodbye, it won't be that hard. This is rather impossible, knowing me.

And the latter is somehow related to relationships

Why get involve when you know it will end one day? Be it a breakup, or passing on? Isn't it harder when you get attached to a particular person or a thing (trust me, I totally am able to comprehend both) and to lose it after?

On the other hand, one may argue that even if it is meant to end, the process that you go through - the memories created, the happiness once present, the lessons (if any) learnt that mould you into a better person.... is priceless. But how many priceless but void memories you want to collect during your lifetime?

So at the end of the day, it boils down to whether the things gained from the process is worth the hurt, tears, anger and sadness felt when the curtains falls.

so the doc confirmed that i have asthma

great.

puff away! different kind of puff this time round though.


i would hereby like to thank everyone for giving me the chance to inhale your 2nd hand smoke

i was looking through the past entries a couple of days back.

memories are really amazing.
coupled with photos...even better
aaron tagged that i hardly blog with photos these days
which is so true..

i don't want to lose this period of memories (given my memory)

will do something about it soon


updates- ian went back perth.

jas went back melbourne

but bazz is back!
i'm so so so so so glad happy that he's back.

congrats to jordan n candice once again...great wedding!

i may be dying soon. had difficulty breathing , chest seems to contract n feels so tight. cough has been here 4 a couple of months. suspected lung infection or asthma. given 2nd round of medicine that caused my heart to beat faster n hands to tremble. asked to get a xray done. been drowsy n strengthless for a week.

i wonder if its due to medication..
or the absence of alcohol?
heh..i've been a real good girl ..
just had my first non-alcohol weekend in a long time